One day Estelle's baby, Mia, disappears. ALL of Mia's things disappear. EVERYTHING of Mia's disappears. Not one sock is left. Not one pacifier is left. Not one bottle of formula is left in the refrigerator. Not one piece of furniture! It ALL disappeared! What's going on? Estelle's husband blames HER! What about HIM? This is a crazy case! The police are called in, eventually, and Estelle is beside herself. We are frantically reading trying to find out what happened, but can't, and some of the things Estelle does, such as not calling 911 right away just don't make sense to us.
This book doesn't really slow down until about Chapter 11 when the story starts to go through things a little slower, when we can finally slow down and start to process things a little more about what really happened. Although, then again, we now have her husband, Jack, to deal with. He is a nasty one! Or at least these are his true colors he shows in most of this book!
Everything that is wrong with Estelle is not ALL Postpartum Depression after all we learn! Sure, she definitely has it/had it, but there are other things at play here, too. Estelle DID HAVE A BABY! That is a proven FACT! Her husband can't try change the facts about that. Not everything that is wrong with Estelle can now be blamed on the postpartum depression.
Jack, doesn't help Estelle with her memory, either. He continually puts her down and makes her feel guilty, that she DID do something to the baby. She believes Jack so much that she starts to dream of blood (from the car accident? She doesn't know?) and of other strange things because he makes her feel as if it is HER FAULT! Next Jack gets into her psyche by asking her HOW can she LOSE a child? He continually acts like this, and frankly, I hated him! There was not one thing I liked about this man, and I felt he was behind this entire disappearance.
Now we are left with psychologically abused Estelle, feeling as if she DID do something to make their baby who had severe colic, keeping both her and her husband up at night, every night, and then conveniently her husband gets a job in Chicago, temporarily of course, and Estelle and the baby will continue to stay living there in Brooklyn during the time he lives in Chicago! (Wow! Did Jack set up the deal of a lifetime or what? Jerk!) Estelle IS feeling like she is going crazy, but so would you without one friend being 'allowed' into your home, (yes, this is at her husband's request!) Estelle has no family to help her, either, and prior to this accident, she is with this baby 24/7, the ONLY help was Mia's naps and sleeping at night, of which she was not good at because of the constant crying. The baby never slept. Estelle does start believing she IS crazy, and did lose the baby somehow. I don't know about you, but I sure would start to feel like I was at fault in Estelle's situation, too!
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